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Yer! How la this!? :( Haih haih haih... I'm suppose to make up my mind pretty soon but I'm so damn afraid of how and where it might bring me!

What if things gets more worse upon reaching there? I can't just move back to KK!

Then what if I fail to get clicks?! Gosh gosh gosh, that's another thing to worry about! :(

And lastly, haiyaaa - people change when they go there. What if I do too? Grr! >.<

People often say I worry too much, that I should just learn to take it easy and learn to let go of certain things. But I'm just built and born with this package, I THINK A LOT, AND I CAN'T HELP MYSELF! >.<" So tell me what should I do?! HAIH!

I wish there were more reason to stay but there are just more reason to leave instead of the opposite. I've got everything I want here - friends, family, my beautiful weekends... Do what I want when I want. Everything. In KL, I might have to start all over again. Sad. But there are just too many internal reasons as well as external reasons to contribute to my leaving...

But anyhow, I've got some things to accomplish before leaving - therefore I'll just list it down briefly. (a mental note to self)

1) Collect pocket money, make sure bank has at least 2K before leaving.

2) Secure Beverly apartment as my own crib.

3) Make sure parents know how to use Skype because I'd be missing them much. :(

So I guess that's it so far. Nothing else is important... I hope when I leave and even after I'm back, those people I love would still be the same. :) Oh, I love you guys so deeply! :'(

Huhuhuhu~ I'll just think and panic about this later on again. I'm going to just sleep with my broken heart for the moment. Toodles. *sob*